To my dead Cat

Chunky, my dear pet.
(Oh how you hated the vet!)

You were but a week or two,
when Mom found you,
licking the cauldron of ghee
in adorable kittenish glee…

Before you, I never had a ‘real’ pet
All came, and went away or were sent away pat * πŸ™
But you were different
Oh you were so adamant!

To you, I was introduced –
when I came back from the tuition. Boy, I was so very deuced!
You were hiding in the farthest corner under the ‘computer room’s’ bed,
Oh hello, little one…I bent and said.

All squiggly and wiggly, you walked to me.
As I sat down, you purred and circled me.
You were so delicate, but boy, did your purring motor race!
For the first time in my life…a fur-ball had me scare(d)!

They let me keep you,
rather, they themselves kept you!
You were soon family,
The house’s youngest member, officially!

Then you unleashed your childhood.
You were a fussy eater – miss puss-in-boots.
Milk, you drank.
From bread, you shrank.
Buttermilk, sometimes.
The shake incidence, we still narrate at family story times!****

In the living room, you had your own cat-home.
A large metal cage, with a pretty dome.
By the day, the grounds you’d roam,
at night, you had no choice, but to stay home.

Then the hunter in you showed up.
At your sight, the birds would warily chirrup.
You chased insects, who did not heed you at all
One bit your nose. Since then, you ran at the sight of all!

You left behind your childhood garb goofy,
and after teenage, you turned into a celebrated beauty.
You made me an insecure Mom,
when you went out with that tall-dark-handsome Tom!

I soon realized there’s more than food in your tummy,
My God! My li’l Chunky was now a soon-to-be Mummy!
You rested in my lap,
And I watched you nap…

Days went by, and that summer, we had new babies,
I am thankful, you didn’t make me change their nappies πŸ˜›
What a joy it was, to see you transform –
from a helpless kitten, to a hands-on cat-Mom.

The rest, my dear, is history.
Far and wide, you and your clan spread your glory.
One day, just like you had appeared,
you disappeared.

I never had a chance,
to give you another glance.
Our meetings had become so rare,
after I was off to College, I had little home-time to spare.

I knew you were gone,
but my heart would have of that none.
You met me in my dreams,
leaving clues, muffled screams…

Of where you’d be,
Of where I should see…
Were you in your old spots where you’d hide
as a kitten, when you didn’t want to be grounded at night?
Speak to me,
I want to rescue you, my child…

And then I woke up,
all shaken up.
I was positive you were in danger,
and I could do nothing but hanker.

One day, you met me in dreams again,
we were at home, and you came hopping in like a mad man.
I screamed. This time with joy,
Come ‘ere, that’s my dear boy!

You played with me, to both our heart’s content,
that’s when I realised, you still seemed distant.
Almost heavenly.
That’s when it hit me.
The way you looked at me,
Even in my dreams, I knew, this is the last I’d see.
Of you, my dear Chunky,
you dear dear cat spunky.

You bid me adieu,
didn’t you?
‘Cos since then,
I haven’t seen you.

Not even in my dreams…
And now, there are no silent screams.
Looks like you’ve found your peace.
Although you were never the one for it, you tease!

Last week, I saw a movie,**
in which there was a playful doggie.
He came back to meet his human friend,
After 50+ years end…

Somehow I know you, you dead cat.
You are planning something…tell me what you’re at!
Are you gonna come back to me, when I am tired and old,
to meet ‘him’ too? He was there, back then too you know – why, that’d be gold!***

If you’d only say, and oh if you’d said it sooner,
I’d have spared that emotional shower,
when I cried my heart out, a year after you did disappear…
Yeah, I took my time until you told me that you’re dead, you heart-breaker πŸ™‚

Now be a gem, and say you’ll be back, even if it’s for the rat(s)!
You nut, you crazy crazy whippersnapper, you smug li’l brat!

* We had a lot of rescue kittens, dogs and birds. We nursed them and set them free wherever they were found. So we had a lot of animals over, but they never stayed as pets.
** A dog’s purpose
*** Reference from A Dog’s Purpose : Ethan’s girlfriend had met Bailey, his Red Retriever dog. After reincarnation, the trio meet again. When Chunky came to live with us, Abhijeet was in town too! He hasn’t met her though. Till now that is… πŸ˜› Ok, I am not crazy, I am just trying to make this poem as good a tearjerker as the movie.
**** Quite a story…saving it for other times…
So this is how 2 week old kittens look. Chunky was found exactlyΒ at this age –

10 responses to “To my dead Cat”

  1. Aunty G. says:

    Chunky was found following Krishna’s example
    Discovered in a cauldron, savoring a ghee sample
    She was the first feline
    Made a real pet beeline
    And her memory, in dreams, will no more rankle!

  2. Ruchi, hugs <3
    It might hav been a long while, but I know how it is. Yes, I teared up, and Kutts in the room with me as I did so <3
    Thank you for asking me to watch A Dog's Purpose. Though I never shall. Can't πŸ™‚ Love ya, gurl!

    • Meta says:

      Okay. I have to share something eerie. Maybe it’s all in my mind but on my trip to Goa this week, I thought I met Chunky again. The resemblance was uncanny and the way she jumped at my beck and call – it was almost as if I had trained her. Except, she was a he – a swanky teen Tom. And like I said, you’re living the life shown in those movies so you wouldn’t have to watch it. It is us – the outsiders who need to turn to the screen to experience life with these angels πŸ™‚ Hugs to you too <3 I miss Kuttan πŸ™‚

  3. I went back a few years back now to cuddle my beauties, Zorro, Koyla, E.T., Nero, Ammaakkaari etc. Jinju and Goalie were the last one. But all of them have gone. No one died at home. They just leave.

    Interesting poem. One day you start taking care of a kitty….you won’t regret. They are entertainers!

    • Meta says:

      Aww πŸ™‚ Love the names! We had a dog Raju who came home to breathe his last. Cats just vanish… I always say that if I am denied salvation for my attachment to worldly people, it would be because of my attachment to pets – not humans πŸ™‚

  4. Hey Ruchi, this was a very cute read. I have never had a pet but I could relate with the emotions.

    • Meta says:

      Thanks for making me write πŸ™‚ After her, I’ve had no pet. Let’s hope I get to raise one soon!

  5. Hemange says:

    Hugs.. So well written.. More than it is a feeling that you have poured … It just touched me beyond words…

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