Day 25 : Think of any word. Search it on google images. Write something inspired by the 11th image.

The word I searched is ‘Success’.635939176359096238-1005869204_success
I had heard them say, it is lonely at the top.
But it’s only because, they are a jealous lot!
I am at the pinnacle,
my life’s now a spectacle.
I have achieved my goals,
is this the end of the roads?
No, I pause a bit here,
to address my fear –
Am I really alone?
Oh am I really alone?
I sacrificed a lot,
that’s what my kids I taught –
let go of things and people, that get in your way,
those who make your decisions sway.
Will they now leave me too one day?!
I always did what I wanted to do,
Why, that didn’t stop me from wooing the girl I knew!
I married her, and now there are four of us,
Going our own ways, but bound by trust.
I stand at the top of the mountain,
devouring a never stopping fountain,
of intoxicating inspiration…
Am I really alone?
Oh am I really alone?
Are my wife and kids gone,
In their own quests for their unknown?
Nay, you ditherers.
Nay! You distracters!
I’ll tell you what is success –
It ain’t lonely, it ain’t alone – it grants you access,
to your soul’s innermost recess.
It is mine, still too theirs.
My people, they are all on their respective stairs.
One day they’ll bask in their hard earned glory,
and to all they’ll tell our story,
Us who survived,
the distracters myriad.
We found our own serene, our own tranquil,
We are not alone, we don’t need a common anvil
And for the mundane cast iron, we do not toil,
We make our own tools!
We think of us as wolves!
Together, but alone,
we trudge our paths, worn.
And thus, our travails have borne
us, sweet success to call our own.
We look alone,
But we are not alone!

Day 23 : A letter to someone, anyone.

This letter is to my inner critic.

Hello Critic,

I will not give you the privilege of addressing you as my inner editor. No. You are the critic in me. You are a perfectionist. At least, you think you are.

They say writer’s block happens because of you; because you think I do not have anything worthwhile to write on. They say the only way to deal with you is to write to you and overcome the fear of facing you. Alright, here I am.

I am here to tell you – judge me all you want! I am not afraid to face you anymore. I have gone through my earlier blog posts, my journal entries, my short stories, my poems, my tweets and even my Facebook posts several times. I have never felt that I don’t write anything worthwhile. I have seen Ratatouille and know what critics can do to an artist. I am not letting you get to me like Anton Ego.

You are a good fellow. However, you are not well read. How do I know? Because I am not well read! Ha! Well, I won’t hinder your progress, now that I have decided to focus on reading too. Do not think this is to give you more ammunition to blast my works before they find their way to paper. It is to boost my confidence in my capabilities as a writer. So be prepared to be surprised by the quality of my work.

It’s not that I can do away with you entirely. Even if on most days you are the nemesis of my work, I need you to keep me grounded. If I know that you are not there to screen my work, I’d think I am perfect and won’t feel the need to write. I need you to motivate me to write, to prove to you that I can and I will! I need you like Buck from Ice Age 3 needs Rudy.

So we make an open pact, eh? You don’t rubbish my work before it is written and I don’t ignore your critique after it is given. After all, to survive any longer, you too need writers like me to laud or trash.

Here’s to constructive criticism.

Your writer self,
Meta Wordcoiner.

Day 18 : Post 30 facts about yourself

  1. I will turn 30 this October. I was plagued by worry since I turned 26, but now I am rather looking forward to 30s. My Dad says nature gives humans the right thoughts for the age that they are, to control any regrets or disappointments. I kinda agree now.
  2. I topped my town’s SSC exams (amongst girls). I am not very proud of it when I have to mention my percentage. The only matter of pride is – I topped the exams without copying. Which is a big deal because our town has a lot of copying going on in every board exams.I copied a verbal problem in Chemistry in HSC. The supervisor put me up to it – to boost my percentage. I never copied in Engineering. I never ever solved a verbal problem after Chemistry paper. I got 64 in Physics because I left 20+20 marks verbal problems simply because it bored me to solve maths. My college Principal noticed me when I got to 4th year and told me publicly – Well,done! For the one who doesn’t like maths, you have made it throughout to the last semester. I flushed.
  3. I love language. Especially English.
  4. I am a cat person. Dogs, I like, but not as much as cats. IMHO, dogs are too gullible.
  5. I am trying to be a morning person since about 2 decades.
  6. I have encyclopaedic knowledge about trivia related to movies, series I watch.
  7. I am judgemental. I see a person for who he is, make my conclusions and can still be cordial with that person even if I don’t quite like him/her. In other instances, I understand they are different people and like to get to know their POVs.
  8. Everybody always thinks I am lying, even if I am telling the truth. There’s something about my face. Also outrageous things happen to me. Have you ever been bitten by a mangoose inside your house, by the shoe stand and have had to explain to the science teacher that you did not go to tuition the other day because you were getting a rabies shot because a kid mangoose bit you in the middle of civilisation? Have you ever seen vultures encircling a cow’s skull in your school playground – after school? Have you ever submitted a different subject file with only the index for the subject you are submitting for (by mistake) and gotten away by replacing it the next day? Have you ever written ‘Please smell the paper’ in your science exam, just because you wrote with a scented pen? Have you ever fallen to the hard ground *with* a tree branch in your hand, from about a 2-storey high ‘mountain’ of cotton seed and escaped unhurt and told everyone years after the incident happened? Have you ever rubbed a whole pencil-written answer because you wrote the answer to the 5th question in place of the 4th one (not in a printed quiz, but in your own notebook) and wrote the correct answer for both again and the teacher postpones checking for some reason, you are made to take the notebook home and then the next day you are accused of correcting (how presumptuous that I could have written a wrong answer) the answer at home – because she says – why did you not just switch the numbers?! (I have a mild OCD, for God’s sake!) Nobody believes me!
  9. I am a confrontation avoider. I will never argue a case or voice a different opinion if it serves to make the scene ugly. My folks say I argue a lot. So did my teachers say about me. These are two diametrically opposite things – make your own conclusions about me.
  10. I don’t swear. I don’t have aversion to other people swearing. I have often wondered if any of my characters would swear. Why, of course they would, if they are such people who swear. It’s not that I am afraid of swearing, I never felt the need for it.
  11. Most people have never seen me angry. Close family and friends who have seen me angry at times are surprised that I have that kinda emotion in me. When I am angry, I vent out in English (not writing…I speak my heart out in English.). I also alliterate when angry.
  12. I can spend an entire day just thinking. I often end up with the result ‘INTP’ in personality type test.
  13. I have tried a busy life and a lazy life. Both have not given me peace of mind. I am in the process of finding a middle ground.
  14. In my head, I have a model’s body, a movie star’s body language. I have written several books and head a successful organisation. My closet is rich and organized. I am working towards the goals each day.
  15. I start new things, expand ideas and often miss following them through. I think it has a lot to do with me being the INTP type.
  16. I like to experiment with my hair.
  17. I am an outdoor person who never steps out of home. Beat that.
  18. I have a very few real friends. The kind of friends who do not expect anything from me and are there to hear out my fantasies and ventings. I exploit them a lot.
  19. I am the kind of friend who will sometimes entertain your idiosyncrasies throughout the day and sometimes just shut you out even though you are speaking to me. As long as I know you are in no serious trouble, I can be like that. If you are in trouble or have an event in your life, I will be there hands and feet, waiting on you and shielding you from unnecessary stress coming your way.
  20. I like getting gifts. I like giving gifts. Sometimes I have already given the gift in my mind, so you don’t get anything from me on your weddings, birthdays, or when you have children.
  21. I do not belong to the world around me. At times I feel difficult to breathe thinking my life will be spent doing the mundane.
  22. Once, I wanted to change the world. Not anymore. Now I want to make myself the best work of my life.
  23. I start skin care routines and never follow through. Same with medicines. I just see the doctor and feel I have been cured.
  24. I feel an urgent need to stop time. At other times, I happily while away days reading for hours on end.
  25. I wanted to be a fighter pilot, a scientist, an astronomer, a RAW agent and a politician.
  26. I want to start public speaking, debating and video blogging. Someone at the Dubai International Film Festival told me I am a natural at speaking into the camera…whatever that means.
  27. I am never tired of self-flattery. I am a boaster (miya-mithoo, if you may) and I know it.
  28. I seldom get to eat the food I like. I never consciously think about food.
  29. I like cartoons much. I have not been in touch with the latest cartoons and comics for the last 10+ years.
  30. Some days I feel the world is a hype and I am at peace in my cocoon. Some days I feel I am not at pace with the world. I revel in wistfulness I guess.

 

Graphics

In my whole career, I have yet to meet a designer who can make what I visualise. I have also yet to meet a designer who completes all the screens using just an initial brief.

I have met but one designer who is really into his work and tries to break patterns. Pity, the work I had for him had set wireframes and he couldn’t put much of his expertise into the visual designs as the client had very strict guidelines for the screens.

The heart of an IT company lies in its design team – the conceptualisers, the wireframers and the visual designers. A potential client will judge you first from your website (developed by your team) and then the thumbnails on your app portfolio and then (if at all) will download and use one of the apps to get a feel of your coding expertise.

Your designs should be perfect in colour combination, layout of the action items and informative items and most of all – should be self-explanatory to a new user. Do you know of such a visual designer? Please connect him/her to The Mavericks!

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Failures

Project failures are a part of a company.

Many times apps are rejected by App Stores. At other times, they fail to reach completion. The apps that reach the store can also fail – they are not accepted by the target users.

When I started development, the first 9 of my apps met the above fate. At times like these, you have to do a little soul searching to determine if you have given your best. If you have, bury the apps or revive the dead code – according to your client’s wish and move ahead.

Digesting failures and owning up to your planning mistakes or if the client is not responsive enough, stating that straight forward goes a long way into healing your taxed brain and heart – both of which are very essential to function daily as a developer or a project manager.

As they do post match in cricket, it is very necessary to make a draft of how you and the team handled the project – the goods, the bads and the uglies – regardless of the failure or success of the project. There are always part failures even in a successful project – internal (unknown to client) or external (known to client) – write them down as lessons for the next time.F