Day 7 – Consistency

NaBloPoMo November 2016

I am uber talented. In everything I take up.

Something always prevents me from making it to the top. Even if I do make it, there is a nagging feeling of being unaccomplished. Why?

I do everything in bursts, not streaks. Example : I started NaBloPoMo and fizzled out on Day 3.

Streaks happen when the doer is consistent. Here’s a piece I wrote in January about how being consistent can bring about a major change.

As I mentioned before, I am preparing for pre-nationals in 10m  Air Pistol to be held in mid-November. Our coach has started a new program where we train in group. First he gives us individual targets (e.g- Shoot 46 in 5 shots, each shot has a maximum value of 10 points). Then we are divided into teams and have to shoot the given number of shots to the best of our capacity.

One day, I consistently shot well and won a tie-breaker by scoring a perfect 10 (bullseye). Our team won. Next day, barring some problem with the weapon, I shot okay-ish. The highlight was – a perfect 10, which I followed up with a measly 6. A 6! At this level, I should not be going beyond 8 and this was in the white-space. Anyhoo, our team won one round and next round – we at least did not end up in the bottom.

Why am I telling you all of this? Because despite having all the potential and skill required for a certain task, I often fall short of giving my best to it (forget doing best). And the reason of falling short is – not giving enough time daily to the activity. Be it shooting, writing or my in-pipeline start-up – everything needs chunks of time DAILY from my routine. Instead, I end up doing stupid mundane things like doing the dishes, making food or organising the closet. Or in extreme cases of escapist moods – I can be found dozing off or reading. Grrr…

Coach’s advice : Do not belittle yourself. Pat your back every time you do well. You have to practice daily to achieve a certain level of confidence. But, if you are not coming to practice regularly, you can still shoot well if you believe in whatever training you have managed to do.

Bottomline : You can get away with being irregular, if you manage to do the required thing on time and with quality. To do this, you have to believe in yourself. Because (and I realise this at this precise moment) regularity or repetitions are different from being consistent. Consistency is performing well regardless of how regularly you do the activity. There is a shadow of doubt though – can you really be consistent without DAILY practice? Of course, there is a bare minimum level you need to attain first. After that, you can be fairly good, even great, if you have ‘just enough’ practice and a truck load of confidence (not over confidence).

Do you have difficulty in being consistent or regular? How do you deal with it?

It’s okay if you tell me this is a pretty pointless post, but this self-talk at least makes me post the Day 7 NaBloPoMo post.

Day 23 : A letter to someone, anyone.

This letter is to my inner critic.

Hello Critic,

I will not give you the privilege of addressing you as my inner editor. No. You are the critic in me. You are a perfectionist. At least, you think you are.

They say writer’s block happens because of you; because you think I do not have anything worthwhile to write on. They say the only way to deal with you is to write to you and overcome the fear of facing you. Alright, here I am.

I am here to tell you – judge me all you want! I am not afraid to face you anymore. I have gone through my earlier blog posts, my journal entries, my short stories, my poems, my tweets and even my Facebook posts several times. I have never felt that I don’t write anything worthwhile. I have seen Ratatouille and know what critics can do to an artist. I am not letting you get to me like Anton Ego.

You are a good fellow. However, you are not well read. How do I know? Because I am not well read! Ha! Well, I won’t hinder your progress, now that I have decided to focus on reading too. Do not think this is to give you more ammunition to blast my works before they find their way to paper. It is to boost my confidence in my capabilities as a writer. So be prepared to be surprised by the quality of my work.

It’s not that I can do away with you entirely. Even if on most days you are the nemesis of my work, I need you to keep me grounded. If I know that you are not there to screen my work, I’d think I am perfect and won’t feel the need to write. I need you to motivate me to write, to prove to you that I can and I will! I need you like Buck from Ice Age 3 needs Rudy.

So we make an open pact, eh? You don’t rubbish my work before it is written and I don’t ignore your critique after it is given. After all, to survive any longer, you too need writers like me to laud or trash.

Here’s to constructive criticism.

Your writer self,
Meta Wordcoiner.

First ramble

February is a month of rambling. So I have heard, from the bird Lady at Shail’s nest. I am going to participate this good year. What better than letting off some steam and even getting page visits for them. All goodie…

So the first ramble is about procrastination. Hear you…you evil streak in my mind…why are you so perseverant even though thy name is procrastination? Before you assume things, let me bring you up to speed. I have stopped procrastinating in the literal sense since a long time, but I still tend to put off certain things – like writing – to accommodate more pressing things….like doing the dishes, or the laundry. 

Since I have left my day job, I have all the time in the world. Little do you know – when you have money, you have no time for your passions. When you have time, you have no money for your passions. It’s one daunting inverse relationship. Well, well, who am I fooling but myself? Writing needs no money! 

Anyhoo…I have not procrastinated on reading neither – finished some 5 books. Hope writing picks up something from it. I think I am secretly waiting for a fictional age in my head when everyone will take me seriously enough if I write a full fledged book. That’s a good reason for procrastinating eh…NO. I put my foot down, now! 

Ramblings shall mark an end to writing procrastination.

April A-Z Challenge : Theme Reveal

I have signed up for the April A to Z challenge, early this March. 23rd March was the theme reveal day. Somehow, I missed reading the schedule 😐

Well, better late than never.

Pursue your passions : now!
Pursue your passions : now!

My theme is going to be ‘Pursue your passions : now!’ (which will be abbreviated to Passion in the upcoming posts).

All this while, I have been pondering on what leisure activities I would like to pursue in depth. The funny thing is, I never ever get up from my comfy sofa!

So in the month of April, right from day 1, I shall act on one of my passions and then blog about it. And this is not an April Fool’s prank, mind you!

For the official A-Z Challenge theme reveal page hop over to this link.